Gambling addiction in general: When madness takes hold of you

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Gambsvater wrote on 08/23/2021 at 18:15: "Moin zusammen,
my name is Gambsvater, and I am a gambling addict"

"Hello Gambsvater"

I always had to think of scenes of the AAs from movies when I used to think about telling others regarding my addiction.

Covering serious things with humor just suits me. I've been able to do that since I was a kid, always being the sponge for my mentally ill single mom.
Parentification is the name of the fun, it's quite funny when you as a little squirt have your crying mother in your arms every evening and have to comfort her. When you have to deal with your mother's suicidal thoughts.

As a result, I remained a "child" for quite a long time, since my own development took a back seat.


About me:
-i am an addict
-i am 25 years old
-good job/live alone/feel alone


I haven't smoked for a week now, which is not that often for me. I think that's why I have the energy to communicate here.
I now have the will and motivation again. But even greater is my fear that soon I will no longer think about the bad sides of addiction.

"Oh come on, what's 100€ that I'm paying in 1x now. I'll make sure that it doesn't get out of hand" - This has happened many times.


But my addiction is not the only reason why I signed up here, more about that later.


About my addiction history:
in 2018 I started to gamble smaller amounts in gambling houses. In the beginning it's all fun as always, you think nothing of it. What's 10€ anyway?
But of course it didn't stop at the 10€. Gambling quickly became a regular occurrence that was very dangerous without me even realizing it.

After the Spilo came the online casino. That's when the madness really began.

10€ at the Blackjack table quickly became stakes like 50€, meanwhile it doesn't feel wrong anymore when I play 100€-200€ hands. The same goes for Roulette
Slots are of course also fun, the RTP is much better than in the Spielo. Stakes of 20Cent-3€ became normal.


I think I got rid of my 20.000€-30.000 in a few years. And what is the result?

4500€ in the Dispo,
2000€ on the VISA card
2500€ on the VISA card
25.000€ credit (of which only 18.000€ comes from the car)

And all this with a normal job where I am just at the 2,000€ net.

I had to partially steal old IT hardware to survive. Did it stand out? No it didn't
I approached my old employer and explained the situation. He thanked me for my honesty and let me find a new job with a black eye.

Now I have had a better job for 1.5 years, but has anything really changed about the situation? Not really
At most, I've gotten better at not letting the addiction escalate to the point where I can't pay my bills
For a long time, I didn't even notice that my mountain of Debt kept building up.

I increased the overdraft facility here and there, made some money available there, and took out a loan there.

It's not good for your SCHUFA either if you make credit inquiries every few months.


Where the addiction comes from is another topic. But I think everyone who is addicted craves the same things over and over again:

Love, security, happiness, carelessness.

The word "addiction" comes from "longing", as we all know


I want to put an end to it all. At least I thought so. I have thought that many times.

i had held out for 2 weeks now, then the whole madness started all over again.

I just had my credit card on 0, now you're back to the limit with 2500 € But I wanted to cancel the card to take away a possibility to lose money.
did it work? Apparently not. I increased the overdraft especially for this. What did it bring me? More debt.

I'm even at Deutsche Vermögensberatung, I wanted to create a budget, a savings plan. So that I can finally get my finances in order.


I played with insane stakes. 200€ in roulette, 300€ in blackjack
A miracle that it took 3 days until the credit card glowed.


I think so slowly there are hardly any casinos left where I can play.
I also do not know if it is good that I can only play in Curacao casinos

Everything that has a MGA license is blocked for me, because I have indicated to support that I am addicted to gambling.
I have been blocked everywhere, so not only in the individual casinos, but also in the casino groups.


Now I am at the mercy of the scam.


i played at Cashalot.bet. 1900 deposited. 1100 should be paid out.

So far I have received only 700€. Better said 7x 101€ (1€ foreign turnover)

For over a week I am with the support on it that I get my 400€. They keep asking for new statements from me, because the casino is not aware of any fault.

A transaction number for the missing transfers? Missing.

An overview of all individual positions of the transactions? No, this is not technically possible according to support. What I do not believe them.
I should log in myself to download the data. This is not possible, of course, because I have blocked myself.

The name of the bank, from which I should get the money? Missing. The support is the absolute Oberdreck.


Actually, I just want to get the money I'm entitled to and then try to get a grip on my life.


I've already told the casino that I want to do a chargeback in case of hardship if I don't get the money I'm entitled to.

That was my plan. 400€ chargeback. Then the casino and I would be even. Casino totally prints around and keeps me on a long leash.
"We have to wait for the answer from the bank" .... and that for days.


But now it's like this

I wanted to get blocked in another casino when I still had an open withdrawal. (Nationalcasino) Was my account blocked even though I pointed out my Gambling addiction? No it wasn't. Of course I lost more money.
The reason for non-blocking was "You can't have your account blocked until all outstanding payouts have been made." Are they allowed to do it that way?
Do I have any chance of successfully completing a chargeback there?


Of course, you think about how to get the most money back. You look for ways out and solutions.
Getting money back at all would be something.



What I don't want is to gamble away the money I might get back again. I need help and I know that.
I have often toyed with the idea of help, but I could never bring myself to do it. I put reasons like "Corona" before it

After all, how is a support group supposed to come together when a viral disease is raging among us?


Am I shooting myself in the foot if I start demanding chargebacks?
I want to close the account with VISA and my house bank soon and change to another bank. I want to start all over again.

Either way, I want to get away from gambling, then I'd rather play a round of Call of Duty.



I hope I have not written too confused here. I look forward to your answers.

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