Gambling addiction in general: Do you even know what you are doing ? (Page 2)

agnesaislami wrote on 06/27/2021 at 02:25: Hi guys,

it's just 2 o'clock at night and I'm sitting here at the PC thinking about the last years
I think this is my second or third time saying something on the subject.
I am 23 years old now, I started gambling when I was 18. Initially, it started with 5 cents per spin, in the arcade, then went over to online casinos. At that time I had already read in Google how people have told how they have gambled away their lives and how you have started. I always thought to myself, please what, I would never end up like that, how did they manage to go so far?
Now after 5 years I am exactly the one I always read about back then
All the money I have received always gambled away, lost all my friends, my health (psyche) destroyed
I stand here now, in the nothing. Alone. Live with my family, but even they have noticed my change, but do not know that I gamble and have become accustomed to my behavior
From the first day, from the first spin, I knew that the casino would always win in the end. And still you pay in for years. You lose everything around you, but you don't realize it until it's too late
In all these years I wanted to stop gambling over and over again, but I never managed to do so and I always avoided the therapist and the real will to go through with it. But now I have really reached the end. It doesn't get any lower than that
With this post I'm not looking for attention or anything, or pity. If anyone here is new, has reached their 18 and has now started playing, please let me tell you, stop absolutely, immediately.
Yes there are people who really only see gambling as entertainment, but you can read them with one hand, most of them become addicted to gambling, but deny it or don't even realize that they are already addicted
Because someday you may be me, who writes exactly the same as I do here
If only I had taken the posts I read back then more seriously, I wouldn't have gone so far.
If you are prone to Gambling addiction, then you are just a living corpse. Financially as well as health wise

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Sonja31 wrote on 02.07.2021 at 10:52 am: Hi

@agnesaislami, I can totally understand you, I also lay awake the last few nights thinking about what I actually did, this feeling that you have failed across the board.
I really wanted to listen to many times I have done 2 therapies unfortunately they have brought nothing because it has somehow not yet clicked.

My family knows about it, my sister manages my bank details, only I discovered about 4 weeks ago that I can also Deposit via immediately with SMS tan, "that was my downfall", the day before yesterday via immediately deposited about 2000 euros and have not even thought about that I do not have the money, could deposit so much because my salary always comes very early and all debits are only from the 01, but I was very lucky that I won my bet back, well and yesterday I deposited again 1000 euros:-(.

Am but fortunately still in the plus, but I could not be happy at all because I ask myself over and over again "why, why do I pay in so over my circumstances "??????

And I really realized something tonight...... no matter what and how much I win I will ALWAYS deposit it again.

I don't want all this anymore, I want my life back my freedom and that is worth much more to me than the f**king money.

As someone here has written "it's only money" family, freedom, friends are much more important.

Have me yesterday again locked everywhere and this time I will make it I MUST MUST MUST....

In this sense stay strong and talk to someone about it believe me you feel so liberated afterwards.

Wish you all the best;-)

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agnesaislami wrote on 06/27/2021 at 02:25: Hi guys,

it's just 2 o'clock at night and I'm sitting here at the PC thinking about the last years
I think this is my second or third time saying something on the subject.
I am 23 years old now, I started gambling when I was 18. Initially, it started with 5 cents per spin, in the arcade, then went over to online casinos. At that time I had already read in Google how people have told how they have gambled away their lives and how you have started. I always thought to myself, please what, I would never end up like that, how did they manage to go so far?
Now after 5 years I am exactly the one I always read about back then
All the money I have received always gambled away, lost all my friends, my health (psyche) destroyed
I stand here now, in the nothing. Alone. Live with my family, but even they have noticed my change, but do not know that I gamble and have become accustomed to my behavior
From the first day, from the first spin, I knew that the casino would always win in the end. And still you pay in for years. You lose everything around you, but you don't realize it until it's too late
In all these years I wanted to stop gambling over and over again, but I never managed to do it and I always avoided the therapist and the real will to go through with it. But now I have really reached the end. It doesn't get any lower than that
With this post I'm not looking for attention or anything, or pity. If anyone here is new, has reached their 18 and has now started playing, please let me tell you, stop absolutely, immediately.
Yes there are people who really only see gambling as entertainment, but you can read them with one hand, most of them become addicted to gambling, but deny it or don't even realize that they are already addicted
Because someday you may be me, who writes exactly the same as I do here
If only I had taken the posts I read back then more seriously, I wouldn't have gone this far.
If you are prone to Gambling addiction, then you are just a living corpse. Financially as well as health wise

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agnesaislami wrote on 02.07.2021 at 22:24: Today a surprise. Am to the Merkur to let me block, and lo and behold, I am blocked from 01.07.2021 in all of Germany.
Why that ? I have absolutely no plan. I am simply locked, although I have not made any activity from me. But I can not complain there, I'm happy
Offline is now forever end and online would be possible for me only Curacao, but where I would never Deposit what, because just the fear of any problems with the bank or whatever keeps me away.

Finally it goes forward

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