Gambling addiction in general: Depression,...etc. How's it going with you?

tby333 wrote on 04/22/2018 at 01:28: Hey everyone,

i want to tell you a short story (not so much a story, well, I'll just tell you something...) of mine and I would be interested in how you guys see it or how it works for you?

Briefly about me, I'm the Tobi, am 1 year over the half century, work and am depressed. (lol, like partly in a support group...)
I write it explicitly like this because I don't want my employer or anyone who knows me to know who I am...
It is not only about gambling, but also about other things, which are often related to it.

I just write down everything that comes to my mind and annoys me, so here's a warning about chronological order, sense, context..etc
In addition, I am also not a good text writer, so I ask for understanding.

It is very unpleasant for me to write about me, but now it works, because I drank something.

gambling

I started gambling when I was 18 years old, just after going to a ford (partying, etc.) I went to a casino and tried it out.
-> won a few euros, was a great feeling
This has just increased more and more, in the beginning still in gambling houses (often also with one from the vocational school, there it became really bad and often...), now in online casinos.
My parents and my ex-girlfriend knew about the addiction and after a few years I went to a counseling center, and now I'm banned from all gambling establishments in the area. I also have individual sessions here, which take place every few weeks/months.

My life, my situation

It seems to me basically quite stupid that I write this now in such a way here, but now well...
I could rarely be happy about anything in my life, even as a child.
Sure, gifts have always been something great, but I could never be 100% happy.
As a guy I was also in school always rather quiet nature, usually always friendly and polite, look technically I would
always classify me as mediocre.

Shy I have always been, after the first halfway real relationship in my younger years (cheated..) and other "Fails", I also built up a
a certain self-confidence. There I was then 17 years old. Here I felt moderately good (which was very good for me psychologically) and was able to
date different girls/women, get to know them,...etc
This has strengthened my self-confidence well and in this phase I had then also met my girlfriend at the time.

With this girlfriend, ex-girlfriend for quite some time, I was together for almost 7 years.
In this time I had of course also relatively positive phases, but at the same time also very negative.
During this time my addiction to gambling increased, as well as my depression.
Just after almost 7 years it went apart, because it simply did not fit any more, we both had different ideas of the life
and I could not have imagined in my life that I would be with her until the end of my life... (There were more reasons, which I do not want to go into here)
She emphatically weakened my self-confidence/confidence, put me down too often and I moron let her do it to me.
In front of "friends/acquaintances" embarrassing things blabbed out by me, etc.

After the separation we lived together for about 2 months and then I moved back to my parents...
The months after that were very eventful in the sense of gambling, I had my biggest win ever and could also pay off debts.

Of course I left out some things here, but if I had written them, I would still write them tomorrow and nobody would read them anyway.
Will it anyway no one, but well, I'll write anyway

Current situation, current life

Currently it looks like this with me, I live from month to month (salary income), I have almost no more fun in life.
I haven't had a good night's sleep in years and I have to force myself to go to work every day.
I hardly enjoy anything in life, the only things are:
- I look forward to receiving my paycheck and then gamble
- I drink so much every Saturday until I'm almost drunk and then listen to music (because that gives me something in some way)
- Cars basically, but that's another story
-

I have no self-confidence because I am basically very unhappy with myself, I also hate myself in some ways.

At the whole here I have left out much and I could write as already mentioned, so much more, but to it I am now simply
too lazy...:-D

At the moment I've started a 30 day fitness program again, I'm now at day 23 and it is very exhausting with time^^
But I want to get really physically fit again, to become more interesting for other people and mainly actually
to reduce the self-hatred.
I'm basically a rather calm type, but lately(since a few years) I become relatively fast aggressive...
..and the smallest setbacks knock me back 1000 meters psychologically.
At the moment I actually have almost no friends anymore, they all got lost in the course of the relationship.
i have no one who "grounds" me in a certain way.

What if all of a sudden the company goes out of business or whatever?
I'm not out on the street, but with no money and thousands in Debt?
There are so many questions and so many more and I don't know the answer, I'm just at a loss.

I'm only writing all this because I've had enough to drink...
With every post in the forum I think several times: "Could it p**s someone off? Could it sound stupid? ... "
I hardly dare do anything. Every little shit, I just hate it.

Every month I pay back debts, the last months it's going better too (no new debts), if this continues I might look for an apartment in 1-2 years -> too late in my opinion.
I'm just months/years already a mental wreck and don't really know how to get out of my situation.
Lose weight/get in shape? I do not know.

Does anyone else possibly feel the same way? I would be happy if you could exchange ideas and possibly help each other!

It is understandable for me if no one here writes something back, but I just wanted to get rid of that now times...

What do you think?

What's the best way to deal with depression, depressed moods,...etc?
Do you have effective tips for losing weight? ( Weigh 87 kg at 1.86m, incl. Onepack)

Many greetings

Tobi

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tby333 wrote on 04/22/2018 at 01:28: Hey everyone,

i want to tell you a short story (not so much a story, well, I'll just tell you something...) of mine and I'd be interested in how you guys see it or how it works for you?

Briefly about me, I am the Tobi, am 1 year over the half century, work and am depressed. (lol, like partly in a support group...)
I write it explicitly like this because I don't want my employer or anyone who knows me to know who I am...
It is not only about gambling, but also about other things, which are often related to it.

I just write down everything that comes to my mind and annoys me, so here's a warning about chronological order, sense, context..etc
In addition, I am also not a good text writer, so I ask for understanding.

It is very unpleasant for me to write about me, but now it works, because I drank something.

gambling

I started gambling when I was 18 years old, just after going to a ford (partying, etc.) I went to a casino and tried it out.
-> won a few euros, was a great feeling
This has just increased more and more, in the beginning still in gambling houses (often also with one from the vocational school, there it became really bad and often...), now in online casinos.
My parents and my ex-girlfriend knew about my addiction and after a few years I went to a counseling center, and now I'm banned from all gambling establishments in the area. I also have individual sessions here, which take place every few weeks/months.

My life, my situation

It seems to me basically quite stupid that I write this now in such a way here, but now well...
I could rarely be happy about anything in my life, even as a child.
Sure, gifts have always been something great, but I could never be 100% happy.
As a guy I was also in school always rather quiet nature, usually always friendly and polite, look technically I would
always classify me as mediocre.

Shy I have always been, after the first halfway real relationship in my younger years (cheated..) and other "Fails", I also built up a
a certain self-confidence. There I was then 17 years old. Here I felt moderately good (which was very good for me psychologically) and was able to
date different girls/women, get to know them,...etc
This has strengthened my self-confidence well and in this phase I had then also met my girlfriend at the time.

With this girlfriend, ex-girlfriend for quite some time, I was together for almost 7 years.
In this time I had of course also relatively positive phases, but at the same time also very negative.
During this time my addiction to gambling increased, as well as my depression.
Just after almost 7 years it went apart, because it simply did not fit any more, we both had different ideas of the life
and I could not have imagined in my life that I would be with her until the end of my life... (There were more reasons, which I do not want to go into here)
She emphatically weakened my self-confidence/confidence, put me down too often and I moron let her do it to me.
In front of "friends/acquaintances" embarrassing things blabbed out by me, etc.

After the separation we lived together for about 2 months and then I moved back to my parents...
The months after that were very eventful in the sense of gambling, I had my biggest win ever and could also pay off debts.

Of course I left out some things here, but if I had written them, I would still write them tomorrow and nobody would read them anyway.
Will it anyway no one, but well, I'll write anyway

Current situation, current life

Currently it looks like this with me, I live from month to month (salary income), I have almost no more fun in life.
I haven't had a good night's sleep in years and I have to force myself to go to work every day.
I hardly enjoy anything in life, the only things are:
- I look forward to receiving my paycheck and then gamble
- I drink so much every Saturday until I'm almost drunk and then listen to music (because that gives me something in some way)
- Cars basically, but that's another story
-

I have no self-confidence because I am basically very unhappy with myself, I also hate myself in some ways.

At the whole here I have left out much and I could write as already mentioned, so much more, but to it I am now simply
too lazy...:-D

At the moment I've started a 30 day fitness program again, I'm now at day 23 and it is very exhausting with time^^
But I want to get really physically fit again, to become more interesting for other people and mainly actually
to reduce the self-hatred.
I'm basically a rather calm type, but lately(since a few years) I become relatively fast aggressive...
..and the smallest setbacks knock me back 1000 meters psychologically.
At the moment I actually have almost no friends anymore, they all got lost in the course of the relationship.
i have no one who "grounds" me in a certain way.

What if all of a sudden the company goes out of business or whatever?
I'm not out on the street, but with no money and thousands in Debt?
There are so many questions and so many more and I don't know the answer, I'm just at a loss.

I'm only writing all this because I've had enough to drink...
With every post in the forum I think several times: "Could it p**s someone off? Could it sound stupid? ... "
I hardly dare do anything. Every little shit, I just hate it.

Every month I pay back debts, the last months it's going better too (no new debts), if this continues I might look for an apartment in 1-2 years -> too late in my opinion.
I'm just months/years already a mental wreck and don't really know how to get out of my situation.
Lose weight/get in shape? I do not know.

Does anyone else possibly feel the same way? I would be happy if you could exchange ideas and possibly help each other!

It is understandable for me if no one here writes something back, but I just wanted to get rid of that now times...

What do you think?

What's the best way to deal with depression, depressed moods,...etc?
Do you have effective tips for losing weight? ( Weigh 87 kg at 1.86m, incl. Onepack)

Many greetings

Tobi

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Random wrote on 04/22/2018 at 02:34 PM
THERAPY!!!


You won't get any answers here that will help or satisfy you.

Be honest with yourself: Every possible answer you already know in advance, the tips and understanding posts, the advice, simply everything you already know
You've also probably googled 1000 times with keywords like : overcome depression, live a happy life, fight Gambling addiction, lose weight, build muscle, meet women, etc.

There is no one sentence that changes everything, there is not the ultimate solution you are looking for.

Also this thread here will only be a little distraction, in 2 days you won't care anymore.

Pretty much everyone knows the answers to what they would have to do. The problem is much more the discrepancy between the life you would like to lead and the one you actually lead.
The more the actual image of yourself differs from the one you would like to have, the worse your inner experience and your dissatisfaction becomes.

It does not happen overnight. It is a long process that you have to go step by step.

And almost only a good therapist can help you with that.

Nobody is interested in whether you do it or not. Only you, or not.
So it is only up to you what you do with your life.
Come from thinking into active action.

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